Hey guys. ^^
I just thought I would tell you to add these 2 girls because they are Seniors who go to my school and they'll be leaving for college very, very soon. I will miss them both a whole lot. They have been the greatest inspirations to me throughout my life and I will miss hanging with them at school.
*Morbid-Vicious: She's a great photographer/ pencil artist/ model/ photoshopper and she has definitely been through some tough times and the fact that she was able to pull herself out of them and be one of the funniest people I've ever met. I admire her so much for what's she' accomplished and I don't doubt that she's going to be successful in whatever she does. I wish I could have gotten to known her better. I'll definitely miss her amazing fights with Jake in our Physical Science class, all her interesting photoshoots, and her amazing discoveries/ rants. haha. Good luck at Ai Courtney! We'll miss you!

~AfterTheBreaking: One of my best friends and probably the person that's helped me most in growing as an artist. She's helped me get out of my bubble and my comfort zone. I'm not totally out there yet, but one day I will reach my full potential and it will be because of her. I've never known someone who I could make inside jokes with so easily. We have sooo many... from the govenor and his chocolate bunnies and beeps to Mr. Wild with his box full of maps to secret treasures... even our first meeting in the P.E. locker room... I walked in expecting it to be empty so I could have some alone time... and there she was... bouncing on an exercise ball across the room. haha. I don't think I can ever meet someone in an even more random way. haha. Well... I will miss making inside jokes with you and having our hour long talks on Monday nights as we watched the amazing Ted Dekker pose every second he's on the screen. [Come visit me during lunch one day! D:<]
P.S.: Thanks for giving me a shoutout in the yearbook.
Hail me!!! D:<


Hiatus
That's right... as of today... I officially decided to go on hiatus. It's the end of the year stretch at my school and I need to focus on my grades... I can't afford to slip up now. Other than that... I'm back into my depression so I feel like shit 24/7/365. Normally I'd try to fight off my depression with art, but... it's not working very well. I can't draw, I can't paint, I can't even write. I tried to do some photography this morning and yesterday... but they lacked in soul so much... I really don't have any passion to do anything. And I've noticed that my self-loathing has gotten worse and worse by the day. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror or hearing my own voice I just sicken myself. To be honest this has started about a month ago and it's getting worse. I cry all the time... I finally broke down today during my last period and I ran out of the room crying in the hallway. I was hyperventilating and got really dizzy too. It's just a really hard time for me... so that's why I've decided that I need to go on hiatus. I will still try to be social, but it's hard for me to do it sometimes. Well... I hope all will be well.

-jacy